M A C V A Y S I A

I was going to blog the other day about how I never have time for anything lately, but I couldn’t finish the entry because I didn’t have time. Heck, I don’t even have time for this one.

So this is parenthood. You could say I’ve been on Cloud Nine since the birth of my son, but I think it would be more accurate to say that instead of being on it I’ve been in it. I’ve been walking around in a fog, which is pretty much how I’ve lived for years (I blame it on the ADD), only now the fog is thicker. The things I once had little time for are now things for which I have no time whatsoever. I’m exhausted, stumbling through each workday and saying a silent prayer of thanks at quitting time when I made it through another day without falling asleep or throwing up or something. Every day is a blur.

And I love it.

OK, I could do with more sleep. And I really do need to stop drinking so much coffee, considering how easily I get dehydrated. And I really should start eating better, and exercising, and I should get cracking on a couple of important projects (as opposed to the dozen or so unimportant ones I have also been putting off). But that’s the thing: my current situation has really driven home what my priorities are. I’ve got to take care of my family, take care of myself, and enjoy life while it lasts. That’s it. So simple. Life always seemed so complicated, but suddenly it all seems so blissfully simple. I’ve been meaning to simplify my life for a long time now, but it just never seemed to work. Now reality has come along and done the work for me. I love it.

Alisdair’s doing much better now. He’s recovered from the jaundice, he’s gained weight (from 2.65 to 3.2 kg), and he’s just so darn cute. Now it’s quitting time on Friday and I’m about to go home and see my beautiful queen and my little prince. As exhausted as I am, and as foggy as my life has been lately, that gives me more focus than I think I’ve ever had. And that’s pretty cool. Let’s see where this can take me. It might just take me where I want to go, where I’ve always wanted to go. But for now, it only has to take me home.